Wicked Little Town

Reality Bites

Someone I used to date many years ago was featured on a popular reality show last night.

Hint: It wasn't Donald Trump.

Moving On

With regards to the preceding post, I would like to announce to anyone who cares that it is now 3:20 pm and I have officially finished feeling sorry for myself. Thank you.

Fighting For Love

I recently came across a drawing called "Fighting For Love" by British artist Tracey Emin that features this poem she wrote about loneliness and the longing to be loved. It is very graphic and pretty accurately captures the utter despair and nearly physical reaction that I sometimes feel when I realize that even though I most certainly have known the love of family and friends, I have never truly known what it feels like to be loved by another man in the romantic, physical, passionate sense.

When the fighting starts,
I know that I have lost.
Every hole in my body is bleeding-
my nose, my cunt.
My eyes are red now from all the tears.
I am clutching my stomach,
holding onto myself,
trying to stop my shit
from spilling onto the floor.
I’m all wrapped up in my own pathetic loneliness,
desperate to feel loved again.
I can’t eat,
I can’t sleep.
My mind jumps from a grinding numbness
to some crazy, fucked up, out of control
dog-like hell.
That’s how it is to live without love.

-"Fighting For Love", Tracey Emin [1998]

I Really Do Need To Get A Life

From: JT
Sent : Wednesday, October 6, 2004 10:55 pm
To: Viewer Services, UPN 9
Subject: America's Next Top Model

I would like to know when UPN 9 plans to broadcast this week's episode
of America's Next Top Model, preempted by Wednesday night's Yankees
game on 10/6. There was a commercial saying it would be rebroadcast on
Friday night, but it appears another Yankees game will appear. I
would appreciate your quick reply. Thank you!
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From: Viewer Services
Sent: Friday, October 8, 2004 2:10 pm
To: JT
Subject: Re: America's Next Top Model

Thank you for your recent email. UPN 9 values the comments and concerns
of our viewers and are pleased that you have taken the time to write us.
Top Model aired at it's usual time on Wednesday and will repeat on
Saturday at 9pm. We hope that you continue to watch and enjoy UPN 9.

Sincerely,

Viewer Services

At last!

Relief for us poor, lonely singles spending yet another night alone in bed.

Seriously, if someone were to give this to me, even as a "joke," they would have to worry about their own arms being ripped off, by me, in a blaze of fury.

>Women snuggle up with 'Boyfriend's Arm' [MSNBC.com]